Epiphany.


I have given so much, its time for me to be at the receiving end.
I will not give in to my emotions any more. 
I will not initiate, I will only reciprocate.
I will no longer cover up for your mistakes, or forgive you.
I will ask for more, but give less in return.

Things are going to change.

I'm gonna start a new chapter in my life, so its time to revamp my blog :)!

I recently got 2 new hamsters, a male and a female! They are yellow puddings :D I know their fur looks light brownish, but its actually a little orange-y under the sunlight :) They are so cute! They always cuddle together when they sleep. But they do fight quite a bit. They always want to fight for a spot on the wheel (the green one in the pics!). I can just look at them and watch them run about to past the time. I've had quite a few hamsters in the past, but I've never watched them get pregnant before... so here's my chance, haha!

Haha, i sneaked a picture of them when they were sniffing each other's noses :P they looked like they were kissing! (I love how the cage is transparent so I can see what they're doing)

Haha, hamsters love to groom themselves.

To all potential hamster owners out there, having hamsters will definitely keep you occupied :) Although they may not be as fun to play with as dogs or cats (if you throw a stick, they definitely will not fetch they'll probably run haha!), they are fun to watch and stroke. Plus, they don't need to be bathed! Then again, you'll need to take them out of their cage everyday to play with them and wash their cage. But it's worth your while! :)

I just thought of names for them. The male pudding shall be Marshall (marshmallow), and the female pudding shall be Lily (lilypad)! Haha, HIMYM FTW!!! On a side note, I can't wait for the next season to come out. Who is Ted's wife??? Is Robin gonna marry Barney???

hehe, thx to kaheng =D im gonna post again...
a lot has changed since last year, but for the better. i've realised over time, who i cant live without. i spend so much time wandering in deep thought, thinking of what to do, worrying... things dont seem all that bright now. but, when one door closes, three doors open. i know things will somehow turn out for the better, and the warm, salty tears will no longer roll down my cheeks on to pooh.

have you ever gotten the feeling, of someone grabbing, and squeezing your heart so tight that it hurts so much, you wish you could just rip your heart out from your chest? what do u know, we're on the same boat =D yet, my heart no longer belongs to me. no longer can i think of me, myself, n i, alone... no longer can i walk down this long treacherous path without you. despite all the pain, i regret nothing at the end of the day. if there's one thing i've learnt, is that love hurts. yet, when you're all cuddled up and basking in its tender sweetness, you'll find that its worth it.

dont give up.

as i faintly recall my younger self, when i was barely able to think for myself, i was chosen to be a flower girl at a wedding. i wore a knee-length white dress, white stockings, black shoes with a small heel, and a thin hairband with silver flowers... its funny, how it feels just like yesterday. i carried in my hand, a white basket with crimson red rose petals. i watched with great excitement and anticipation, as we awaited the groom's arrival in the bride's house. i have never seen the bride so anxious before. her face was flushed with anxiety that she passed on to me when she came over to hug me... haha. XP ok, i dunno y, but, everything was a blank after that... "_____"
oh! and, somehow it skips to the hotel... when i was with the bride in the waiting room. it was time to cut the cake! then, i have a cloudy recollection of someone coming over to tell me i had to hold the ring bearer's hand (he was about my age, wearing a mini tuxedo xP) while we walked down the supposed "aisle", before the bride. ok... haha, i cried. i refused to hold his hand. n, i made him cry too... ah, its contagious =(. in the end, he walked on his own, with tears in his pitiful eyes...
to the boy: i have no idea who u r, or where u r now. but, im sry.
hehe, that was random. but, it just popped in my mind =D.
whoa, i think tats enough for tonight. i think the next time i'll be posting, would most probably be nxt year or so... haha. anywayz, if you're reading my post, thx ^^.
dont give up on anyone you cant go a day without thinking about.

haha, months! its been months since i last blogged. guess im too lazy XP.

8th Dec. 10 more days to Japan! but, i'll miss christmas... Haiz. But, on the bright side, i'll still get presents (hopefully, my cousins will get some)... 

though its only, 17 days away? there's no christmas atmosphere here. i guess its coz my house is missing a christmas tree this year. (haha, hopefully this will make up for it?)

song of the day...

Love for a child - Jason Mraz (we sing, we dance, we steal things^^)

There's a picture on my kitchen wall
Looks like Jesus and his friends involved
There's a party getting started in the yard
There's a couple getting steamy in the car parked in the drive
Was I too young to see this with my eyes? 

By the pool last night, apparently
The chemicals weren't mixed properly
You hit your head and then forgot your name
And then you woke up at the bottom by the drain
And now your altitude and memory's a shame

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I like to believe it was all about love for a child

And when the house was left in shambles
Who was there to handle all the broken bits of glass
Was it mom who put my dad out on his ass or the other way around
Well I'm far too old to care about that now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd like to believe it was all about love for a child

It's kinda nice to work the floor since the divorce
I've been enjoying both my Christmases and my birthday cakes
And taking drugs and making love at far too young an age
And they never check to see my grades
What a fool I'd be to start complaining now

What about taking this empty cup and filling it up
With a little bit more of innocence
I haven't had enough, it's probably because when you're young
It's okay to be easily ignored
I'd love to believe it's all about love for a child

It was all about love...

haha. ok mel-raye. as promised... i am gonna post. ^^

im going crazy, with all the hw and projects, and the mugging... 

haha, but, i guess i am still sane enough to blog.

life during lessons, has become more fun. now tat huirms is next to me. haha. we have our very own buffets from monday to friday (maybe, except on tuesdays). there is pre-ordering... xP

band.band.band

el cam, celebration, elisabeth and irish rhapsody.

i can just die from reading the running notes.

ahh, but, i hope i'll get the hang of it.

haha. during free periods, is a gd time to slack, NOT MUG. hehe, i started taking photos wif sm last monday....

haha. i lurv this effect...

big, BIG EYES!

this was actually a mirror image. haha. kw looks like he has no body.

one-eyed simin...

another nice effect, but kw popped behind (so xtra...)

haha. colour pencil effect again. but, kw's hand is blocking huirms

haha. nice one. cl, me, sm, huirms

oh. i lurv this effect too. haha.